Song o' the day- Once again, "Rock your Body" by Justin Timberlake(I saw the guy who's obssessed with it today, I can't help it.)

A lot of things have gone on since I last posted so I will fill you in as best I can at this late hour.

On Friday I hung out with Jessa & Andrew. We were at my house and played videogames on his XBOX.(which in itself was kind of funny, because I knew he was bringing it but Jessa didn't and he shows up with this huge backpack when Jessa picked him up..anyway)We played Halo and Project Gotham Racing. I had never played Halo before so I was pretty bad. At first all 3 of us were against each other, but Andrew's a lot better than us, so he put us on a team against. Pretty soon I got tired of having no kills so I shot my own teammate(Jessa of course). She shot me back though, so no worries. We also watched the Rockies Inaugural Year video which scared the hell out of Jessa. After we dropped Nathan off, Jessa, her mummy, and I went out to lunch and to Pirates of the Carribean. Both things were really cool.

On Saturday I got up early and went to work. I also had highlights done on my hair. I'm worried about my hair though, because it wasn't how the person said it would be and to me it looks kinda weird. Some people said it looks nice,but I don't know. We'll see how that works out. I drove to Pizza Hut with my mom and we ate there. I had to go back to work after that. So that day wasn't really that great.

Sunday was better. I went to early church,then taught sunday school. My mom and I went out to eat and shopped a little. Then we went to pickup my dad at the airport. Then we went to get some Taco Bell. I took a nap, and then I had youth group. At youth group we went sledding on ice blocks and played at a nearby school. Good "clean" fun was had by all. When I got home Jessa and I talked for like 2 hours, and even though there wasn't a drop of liquor in us, sounded very drunk. It was great fun.

On a much more random side, I have been questioning a lot of things, so if this comes at as "mofo mumbo jumbo", you have no choice but to get over it. It is late and I am tired. I am just crazy and restless.

I often wonder why I act the way I do around certain people. I look back on the way I acted on a situation with someone else and totally regret how I was toward them. I get really nervous around people certain people. So much to the fact that I will do one of 3 things:
a) Be quiet, and totally clam up
b) Ramble on and on during the entire conversation
c) Do or say something weird repeatedly to cover up my nervousness.
It also disturbs me how square I am. I can be so uptight about stuff and never loosen up, and it really affects my social life. I am a very religous person, and I don't wanna lose that, it's just sometimes I wanna be...you know..WILD. One thing that proves my "squareness" is that when I'm around my friends, even those who are really close to me, they cuss and I really don't. They are really nice people, and some avoid it around me, thinking it bugs me. The biggest thing that bugs me about it is that I CAN'T do it that naturally and frankly, a lot of times it sounds messed up when I do.

That's it right now, frankly I'm done pondering. And I wouldn't mind somebody COMMENTING on this blog either.


- posted by nikki @ 1:53 AM